As I was driving Sean to day camp yesterday, we got to talking about the upcoming school year. I was hoping to stir up some enthusiasm for kindergarten.
In his dream world, he does not go to kindergarten but stays home and builds forts in the den with me all day. And eats popsicles for breakfast. In my dream world, he trots happily off to kindergarten for a few hours while I get a few things done. And then comes home and builds forts with me in the den. And then later we watch Deadliest Catch re-runs and eat Ritz crackers on the sofa.
I am always convinced that something fabulous is waiting for me just around the corner. It is just my nature. It always knocks me for a loop when my rose colored glasses fog over, yet still, I just can’t wait to see what’s next. I look ahead and expect good things.
My child is unlike me in this regard.
In this regard, slap some whiskers on that boy and he is his father.
Instead of being excited about all the new friends he will make, about enjoying all the privileges of being the oldest kids in the school, about the awesome smell of new school supplies — he was dour. He does not care for the forward motion of the universe.
In his defense, I will say that his pre-K class was a golden little tribe. They were all especially bright and a uniquely cohesive little group – a dozen good eggs.
“I don’t want new friends,” he said, looking out the window. “I want my same group.”
“Well, I know,” I said. “Those kids will still be your friends, but you are going to get even more friends! Isn’t that great?!”
“Make new friends, but keee-eep the-uh oh-weld! One is silv…”
“Mom stop it.”
“Why do things have to change?” he asked. “I like things the way they were.”
“Well Sean, that’s just how it is. Get used to it. The world and life and circumstances are always changing. Things never stay the same for very long. The world moves forward and never back.”
“Sometimes you say you wish I was a baby again.”
“You know what? That’s true. Every day I wish that. Just a little bit. I look at you and can’t believe you are my four-pound baby. But at the same time, I love the boy that you are now! And I am excited to see what God has in store for you, how you will grow and what you will become. I’m convinced that something wonderful is waiting for you in kindergarten – more friends, more fun, more challenges. You just have no idea how awesome it will be.”
“What if you never moved on before you went into Pre-K? You’d have never been part of the Blue Group. Wouldn’t that be sad?”
“I’m just not ready to move on.”
“Yup. I know. But there is good stuff ahead. Trust me.”
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“No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him” 1 Corinthians 2:9